where is my mind?

"We have no language-no syntax and no lexicon-which is foreign to this history; we can pronounce not a single destructive proposition which has not already had to slip into the form, the logic, and the implicit postulations which it seeks to contest" (198).

perhaps this is the most digestible sentence if i take it out of context. so in order to fully understand my reality, break it down, I am simultaneously, doubly recreating it and henceforth have contradicted the very nature of contradiction. system shutdown.